This is my true story of childhood abuse and trauma who suffered with severe physical pains throughout her body and emotional stress, mental anguish and memory loss my entire life due to the stress, depression, PTSD, anxiety and panic disorders as I suffered with Dissociative Identity Disorder. Confusion consumed my every waking moment while I constantly prayed for death on a daily basis and got my courage and strength through God’s good grace and Christians all around me. God did answer my prayers when he gave me the energy to run and and he was right there with me as I struggled through the turmoil and fear but he had a plan for me and blessed me with the sanity that he had buried deep inside for me to recover in a later time in my life.